Hilarious and accurate description. Irrational insecurities and jealousy hits me pretty bad with nandrolone. I have to take less than 50mg a week and take a week off every couple months to avoid.I went through this several times with nandrolone. Admittedly, with each trial of nandrolone my test dose was such that my E2 was already high before adding nandrolone. Interestingly, each time I have added nandrolone I always feel fantastic for the first week or two. Then at about 3 or 4 weeks, I start to get intrusive thoughts, etc. Nothing psycho, but just irrational jealousies and insecurities. At that point I discontinue nandrolone, and gradually things go back to normal in several weeks.
Something I would like to try would be to either significantly reduce my test dose, then add a low dose of nandrolone, or try the nandrolone based protocol that you have discussed here (though I have my concerns about the long term viability of such a protocol).
I tried running nandrolone solo and with a low dose test cyp. My motivation went to zero, so that's not for me either.