i understand your concern thank you, but its a little more complicated.....

first i dont mean to sound harsh or rude, but i just woke up .......
ok. . thank u but no thank you.... i cant believe this .... i wake up every day with the choice to go out and use . i used to be homeless, and on freakin heroin. depressed and on paxil. and 50 lbs over weight....... my panic levels and stress r beyond anything u can imagine.. I DO seek support. i goto thearpy , have a couseler and am monitored very well..... and my family friends and co workers and myself view me as a strong person , considering. there was a time things like this were brought up, but those things dont happen now...
i understand it might be easy for you to say that, but for some people anxiety and depression r beyond an online support page and actually need more... (which the depression i do deal with with nothing, i was on paxil for 15 years and got off it 2 years ago..after 4 failed trys) but the level of GAD, and panic attacks is off the charts . again 3 doctors not prescribing ones talking drs see me 3x a week. its not like i sit home popping pills in all forms .wollowing in my sorrow ....no ... i take what i need , if not less.....
10 years ago i was homeless, a junky , and using any and everything in the world . i had a dark life.. ok. PTST follows
some people do NEED a little medication....which i follow up with meditation, Reiki , helping others. charity work and other stuff.
i dought i will want to or find any path for that here... again i came here for questions about my TRT as no dr. knows anything...... so im sorry to sound harsh but waking up to another post about this really is annoying.....
if this was even 6 years ago id agree....but NO not now.. i know the difference between abuse and treatment..... and the treatment i am on is needed . i am an amazing member of healthcare industry, i sponcer other methadone pts who dont want to get off of it. and again none of anyones business but i am tapering off every 2 weeks..... if u know nothing about tapering off methadone google it...it takes a very long time. specially somenoe who was on it for as long as me .
i am taking steps...but as for anxiety meds.. unfourtnitly , it seems for the near future i will be on them....in the far future , who knows...... but right now i need the extra help...i try every holistic thing in the world....i shake if the door bell rings... which is a huge step for someone who used to never even leave the house. who now works 6 days a week, and functions with out self medicating. im also drug tested weekly ( again no ones business) i also was born with tourette syndrome. and thats all im going to say
I get what your saying, i do....and if i was out abusing, lieing ,cheating and stealing. and self medicating id agree...but im sorry u are wrong. there are just people who agree with meds and others who dont..... dont u think if i could just magicly be off everything i would? yes of coarse....but just cant happen like that. and i have been in so many inpatient places years ago to get where i am now....i chroniicly relapsed ,methadone saved me. id b dead right now
so maybe one day ill be off the meds but can i please be left alone, and just talk about getting help finding a dam doctor who will get my T levels back correctly and the proper dose. and the subject at hand. as I get enough help , im just words on a a screen right now to you to judge. which isnt fair .
i said one wrong post , worded wrong and was attacked. if u dont agree with taking what im taking im sorry.
have a wonderful day. i know i am .
https://www.recovery.org/forums/discussion/40/the-truth-about-the-methadone-stigma
Maintenance Medication vs. Using
What is the difference between taking medication and using drugs? How long should someone stay in a methadone or Suboxone program? Why do patients with addiction feel pressured to quit their medication in ways that patients with diabetes or hypothyroidism do not? Often, defendants of these treatments make arguments about the nature of the medications. They draw analogies to the chronic use of blood pressure pills or the way patients with a history of depressive episodes need to stay on their SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors, a type of antidepressant) medications — or risk relapsing into depression.
There is a lot of truth to these analogies.
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http://www.camh.ca/en/hospital/heal...lient_handbook/Pages/mmt_clienthndbk_ch8.aspx